lessons learnt
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Monday, October 27, 2008
12:33 AM
minshan has learnt alot of things recently.... i need to grow up and not only noe how disgusting things can get but noe how to handle them.
1. i am quite gullible coz being a truthful person, i tend to think coz i am truthful, ppl will be truthful to me and i believe every alphabet they say. so conclusion, i am stupid. hate myself for being like tt... i wanna turn scheming and bad so i wun haf a taste of being cheated or betrayed again.
2. i tend to wonder whether a person was already like tt to start of with and whether he/she has been putting on a mask to befriend me. scary to notice how frens change and i am again, disappointed with my judgement which i used to be so proud of.
3. I learnt that i shld juz shut up when i am pek cek n stop telling everyone or even anyone about my unhappiness.. coz i nv noe how fast my complaints can be turned into gossips and come back to say hi to my ears. the feeling of being 'stuck by a lightning' is super troubling. If my complaints can turn frenship sour or cause unnecessary misunderstandings, then i rather keep in to myself.. or vent it here.. right here~
4. i start to wonder who are reeli my true friends and who are those crap ones who dunno wad they are saying or doing be it intentionally or unintentionally! my brain is in a mess now, at times my emotions try to rule my brain to tell me how precious such frenships are but my brain persuade me to believe that frens can disappoint me at times too.
5. i discover i am quite pathetic coz i need to actually tell my blog bout all these.
